Tuesday, June 21, 2011

anxiety...

I'm starting to feel a little anxious about the birth of this baby...

1. Fast Labor
I'm getting anxious knowing the hospital is an hour away. I mean, I should be able to get there in time especially since Brian is off for the summer... but I feel like I should have a birth kit in the car or the house just in case. Prompting or paranoia??

2. Childcare
I'm stressed about finding somewhere for the boys to go... My mom was going to be camping around here about the time of the due date but that's tricky because we never really know when the baby is coming, and I don't want to make her camp for like a month! She also has to go back to work on my due date... talk about stress. The plan is to get someone to come here and watch them until my mom/dad/brother can get here... It should take them about 2-3hrs. What if it's in the middle of the night? What if no one in Oswego can watch them and we have to wait for someone to get here... or drop them off on our way to the hosptial ((and have to take out the carseats, make sure they have a bag packed, etc))

3. Boy or Girl?
I'm not stressed but anxious to meet this little one. I really, truly have no clue what this baby is. I mean how would I?! But, I feel like it's going to be a boy... simply because I've always wanted a girl and I just feel like it's not in the cards for us. I know Heavenly Father knows the desires of my heart and I know that I will get the child that I am supposed to. Having a girl, is not about the dresses, bows, pink, etc to me. It's about the wedding preparations, helping her have her babies, and being the fun white-haired grandma that teaches the grandkids to make pies and cookies. I am grateful to be pregnant again and so grateful that the baby is healthy and strong. I am grateful for my two little boys who put a smile on my face like no one else can. I am hopeful that they will serve missions and be good husbands and fathers.

Any words of advice/encouragement are always welcome. <3

3 comments:

Tiffany Beach said...

1. I would honestly make up a birth kit just in case. I've unfortunately known enough people who hadn't planned for a home birth and ended up having them, which were closer to the hospital. If you don't use it, whatever, at least it gives you peace of mind.
2. I really do feel like you are having a girl. :P

But your boys are super cute, so if for whatever reason its a boy, it will be cute...not to mention healthy (which is more important than gender). You could always try again ;)

Mindy said...

I will do anything I can to help, Holly! Seriously!!

Fiona said...

It's more important to have a healthy baby than a particular flavour. But I say that having already had one of each myself. You are correct that the mother-daughter thing is special and cannot be replicated with a daughter-in-law. That's just the way it is. But your grandchildren will love you unconditionally, as much as their maternal grandmother, whether they are boys or girls. And that's just the way that is. xx