Friday, February 6, 2009

WARNING-- *GRAPHIC*

You might not want to watch these (they are a little graphic, if you've ever seen a birthing show on tv- you'll be fine!)... but I've really been trying surround myself with positive VBAC messages.

This message hit home because how she felt before/during/after her c-section was exactly the way that I felt. She got to hold her baby after the c-section. I saw Parker for the first time 30 hours after mine. Yes. That's a Three and Zero.



this woman's story is amazing. i couldn't help but sob at the end of her story...



i could post a million stories. they are so uplifting and empowering.
i hope i can add my stories to the thousands out there....

my final thoughts: its hard for people who haven't had a c-section to know what we go through. i know everyone experiences something different. at the time, i felt like i needed to do whatever to make sure that my baby was safe.... but inside i felt like a failure. you have to fight to keep the smile on your face while your abdomen is burning during recovery. i was trying to pump and so i basically got fancy tylenol to help with the pain. it didn't touch it. i could lift my feet 2 inches off the floor. just enough to shuffle down the hall to see my son through a window- enveloped in blue lights. did i really do the best for him? i'm longing for a vbac. it is what is best for this baby and for me. i can. and i will.

4 comments:

R,K,L said...

I know you will. Remind me to tell you sometime about the play I saw about childbirth this fall. It was awesome. You would love it.

Sara said...

*hug* I can't imagine. I felt violated enough with the repeated offers of interventions, and with my son being taken to the warming table for 5 minutes. The videos made me cry. No woman and no baby should have to go through that unless absolutely necessary, and so often it is not.

I'm glad that you are trying for a VBAC & hoping that it happens for you and that you don't have to fight too hard to be "allowed".

Buscando la Luz said...

I just found your blog after seeing your comment on mine! Yes you CAN! And YES you WILL!! :-)

MeesterMama said...

Hi, my name is Katie, I am the one from the second video you posted (VBA2C), I was on my youtube page and was looking where my video was linked out and found your page. I am so glad I could have given you hope cause all those same videos gave me hope and I wanted to add to those also!! Congrats on your VBAC!!!!