Well, my first appointment went okay. I am officially 8 weeks along. They figured it out by doing a sonogram. So, I'm due March 2nd. They even got the heartbeat! It was 166 (if I remember right).
But, I failed the 1 hr glucose test and so I get to take the 3 hr soon. I'm really upset about this bc I failed both (the 3 hr barely) last time and I had to be induced because of it. I really do NOT want to be induced. I hated it. I want to be able to go into labor on my own, at my own house not on some hospital bed. They said if I have to be induced (which I will if i'm gd again) then my chances of a c-section are going to go up dramatically (c-section rates are always higher with induced patients). I do not want to be in agonizing pain for a week again. And I'm a firm believer that the whole induction/c-section drama was the whole reason I couldn't nurse Parker. And I really want to nurse this baby.
I'm just so sad.
I just want to cry and cry and cry...